this mixed feeling of happy and sad. I can just sit pensive. halt, will not know whom to talk. I can just feel alone in the dark at night. feel lonely do not know which direction. I think that only dreams. feelings are often appear every once I alone. why each person can only understand about themselves? can not feel that it is felt to the nearest person. Therefore, for reasons I still and always keeps whatever I feel.
I may not find someone who can understand the full self to me. I can only try and be patient. single-minded and do what is best for themselves and other people.

with writing what I feel. I hope I can disappear a little burden on the mind. I hope everyone does not judge other people from the outside appearance. but from whom and how he is.

approaching fasting month. I want to gather with my family. gather again as before. but I am not powerless. hearing people to take home page. I am sad because they do not have to know where to return. because my family not in Padang.

i very happy to be art student. that is like dreams to me. but where I get a phone that makes me sad and aware of the condition at this time. I have to keep trying. wherever I learn if I did not try it will still be stupid. I hope I can generate their own income and can pay a student and I live. not pester their parents again.

for the second time it dropped out of love at the start of study. perhaps she was not the best for me. feeling sad I will be roasted to become spirit. I will feel this sense of self. and will own up. sometimes we must learn from each step